The fact that I’m writing my mid-year catchup right now is completely mind boggling if I’m honest. The past 6 months have gone SO quickly, however, so much has happened. I’m definitely not the same person I was 6 months ago. I feel as though 2019 has been a year of immense change, in obvious aspects of my life, but also within my inner self. My whole outlook and mindset have completely shifted and although things are super stressful right now, I’m the happiest I’ve been in a very long time.
Pull Out The Weeds & Let The Flowers Grow.
As you’ll know if you’ve read any of my blog posts from earlier on this year, you’ll know that I was unemployed for a short period and had to move back to my family home as getting the money together to afford the flat I was renting, was too much stress. You’ll know since then that I’ve got a job that I absolutely love and I’m in such a better headspace than I was at the start of the year.
With that said, that does not mean that the past 6 months have been an easy ride. Although my headspace is a lot more clear and positive, it’s taken me a while to be this way, and getting into this mind frame has come with its fair share of hardships. The past 6 months have been a real learning curve in terms of the trust that I put into people and the time I spend worrying and caring for others. I’m naturally a very empathic person, however, sometimes you have to be cutthroat and tell people how it is, rather than considering how they may feel because, at the end of the day, I’m hurt by others a lot more than I do the hurting.
A little something that my mum and I came up with, is that you’ve got to pull out the weeds so that flowers can grow, and this is a mantra I’ve been living by for the past couple of months. How are good things going to blossom, when you’re too scared to pull out the weeds? The weeds may hurt to pull out, but if it leaves room for beautiful, blossoming flowers, then you’re in a better place, in the long run, it may just not feel like it, to begin with.
Moving On Up, Moving On Out…
One of the hardest things to happen this year was moving back in with my parents. I know that I am SO lucky to have a family that will welcome me back into their home with open arms, as without it, I could have potentially been made homeless. This year I’ve definitely realised who my support in life really is and that’s without a doubt, my wonderful Mother.
Although I get on so well with my family, moving back home was a lot for me to deal with. I felt as though I was taking a massive step back in life and in all honesty, nothing’s quite the same once you’ve moved out of your family home. You almost feel like an imposter and as though you can never really settle, especially as I knew that this was a temporary basis. My boyfriend, Vincent and I have been living in my childhood bedroom for almost 6 months now and it took us a solid month to realise that this just wasn’t going to work. The room was not big enough for two people and to this day, we still spend our time climbing over one another to get to the other side of the room. It’s frustrating, especially when you’re used to your own space, it’s a good job we get on really well, otherwise living in each other pockets would have been a nightmare.
If you follow me on Instagram or Twitter, you’ll know that something VERY exciting recently happened, which has honestly been the beaming, bright light at the end of the very dark and gloomy tunnel. Long story short, we’re moving into our first House together VERY soon! I don’t want to share too many details just yet, as we still have a few legal arrangements to sort (honestly, everything to do with getting a mortgage is more stressful than I ever imagined.) So, keep your eyeballs peeled for the big old reveal once we get those magical keys to our new home!
My Goals For The Remainder Of 2019.
We’ve got 6 months left to go, and I don’t think I actually set myself any goals at the start of the year, however, I’m still really impressed with what I’ve achieved, especially considering I began the year on a major low.
– Get a Co-Host for My Podcast, That Millennial Girl
At the start of the year, I began my podcast, That Millennial Girl. Hosting a podcast is something I’ve always wanted to do, especially after studying Radio at University. Although I absolutely LOVE hosting the podcast, it’s a lot of work to do alone, so I’d love to start season 2 up with a co-host! (So, if you know anyone, holla at me!)
– Move into my new House
Now that our Mortgage has been accepted, moving into our new home is going to be the biggest event of the year. I’m so excited to move in and I don’t think I’ll feel truly settled until I have those keys in my hand and I’m opening the door to my new life.
– Save Money
Every single penny I have has gone into this house. I’ve spent weeks eating beans on toast for my lunch in work so that I can afford all of the solicitor fees. So I’d really love to save money for the later part of the year so I can really treat Vincent and my Family over Christmas, as they’ve helped so much with the whole mortgage process and I cannot thank them enough.
– Get back into my Fitness grind
At the start of this year, I put all my depression and anxiety into my fitness and attending PT sessions 2-3 times a week. I absolutely love exercising, I think it’s so good for my mental health and putting yourself in a better place. Since we began the mortgage process, all of my time and energy has been focused on sorting that out. It may not seem like a lot, but I come home everyday feeling mentally exhausted from working 9-5 and sorting out all the legal mortgage bits in the middle.
Here’s to another 6 months of self growth!