Pretty much every blog post I’ve written recently seems to be me having some in-depth life thought, which I’m sure you’re all probably sick of by now. However, over the past month or so, I’ve learned a lot about life. Things that I didn’t think I’d have to encounter at this age, or at all if I’m honest. So far, 2017 has been extremely testing year, to say the least. But it’s all apart of life and the sooner I learn and overcome these obstacles the sooner that I can move on with life and grow.
I’ve always hated voicing my feelings, the thought of burdening someone with my problems has always taken over the fact that talking about things actually does help. When things go wrong, I’m prone to attempting to distance myself from others in order to make the situation less ‘real’ not sure if that makes sense, however, that’s just how my brain has always thought about it. If the problem is just in my head, then it’s just like a fragment of my imagination. The past year, and most importantly, the past few weeks have really taught me that I need to let my guard down and to just BREATHE. As I talked about in my ‘I’m not ready for adulthood: Am I a failure’ post, I talked about how the pressures of life after university have really gotten to me. I then went and snagged myself my dream graduate job, which was too good to be true – Yeah I know, another thing that didn’t work out. But it all happens for a reason, there was a reason that working there wasn’t right for me, and there was a reason why I took it into my own hands to leave.
FOCUSING ON MYSELF…
That decision was really hard to make, I got everything I wanted and had to remove myself from ‘the dream’ because something didn’t sit right with me. Although at the minute I’m back to square one, spending all my spare time blogging and working as a waitress. I’ve taken it upon myself to allow myself some time to breathe. No pressures of getting a job, no pressures of what my next step in life is going to be, let’s just concentrate on having some stress free time to myself and pouring all my time and energy into blogging and the people around me.
It’s time to take a walk on the wild side and let go of the things that I think matter and concentrate on the things that actually do. I’ve got my entire life ahead to put pressure on myself, and that’s all I’ve done for the past 10 years of being in school, college and university. Is it a crime to take some time to focus on yourself? No, not at all.
“Happiness radiates like the fragrance of a flower and draws all good things towards you”
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So, here’s to taking some time to chill the hell out, and focus more on myself. For real this time.