2017 has admitidly been a very challanging year and we’re only 5 months in. I’ve had to deal with a lot of things in the past 5 months, that I didn’t think I’d have to deal with until a later age in life, or not at all. These occurances have forced me to have an alternative look on life. I’ve always considered myself a dreamer, my brain is no stranger to prancing off to fairy land and daydreaming about what could be. Still to this day, I don’t see a problem with that, if you take away a persons dreams, you take a way their spark. However, the past few months have tught me to be more of a realist and learn that although I hate to beleive it, there’s a lot of people in the world with no consideration for others.
Before this year, when bad things happened to me I would really let the problems manifest and become a part of me, I would let the negativity consume me and that’s the vibe that I would radiate to the rest of the world. Which is awful of me, I know. I let sadness consume me, even though I know that sadness will never be me, it just simply consumes me within its thick, uninspring smog and it does you no good what-so-ever.
I am incredibly doubtful of myself at all times, which once again, doesn’t help. Being negative about my abilities and my past,present and future will never do me any good, nor will it do those around me any good. Life really knows how to punch you in the face and knock you off your high horse when you’re feeling great about how your life is going, but that’s no reason for me to spreead this negative energy. My new outlook on life is to radiate possitivity in the darkest of times. I well and truly beleive in Karma, if someone has made a negative impact on my life, life will give them thier just deserts as some point on their life. If I radiate negative energy, it’s likely that same negative energy will just keep coming back to me. However if I’m possitive and shrug of the negativity and allow myself to reamin optimistic (although it is hard) surely that makes me a better person? And surely those possitive vibes will come back to me eventually?
People may read this and question my sanity, “how can you reamin possitive when you’re life is falling apart?” and the truth is, although my life was in complete shambles and everything I’d worked towards and earned was stripped away from me, I allowed myself to dwell in it, however only for a day. I had to scoop myself up and let the world know that I wasn’t giving up. I’m stronger than that, we’re all stronger than we think we actually are, sometimes it just takes a lot of hard hits for us to realise this.
Times change just like the weather. The cloouds may be there, thick and mighty, however, the sunshine will break through at some point.